<p>‘There is so much aching love in this book, such pain and beauty. Behold, and rejoice.’ – Tim Winton, author of <i>Cloudstreet</i></p><p><i>Was he thinking, do I have to be this kind of boy to survive? Is this what being a boy is?</i></p><p>As a boy growing up on the south coast of England, Howard Cunnell’s sense of self was dominated by his father’s absence. Now, years later, he is a father, and his daughter is becoming his son.</p><p>Starting with his own childhood in the Sussex beachlands, Howard tells the story of the years of self-destruction that defined his young adulthood and the escape he found in reading and the natural world. Still he felt compelled to destroy the relationships that mattered to him.</p><p>Saved by love and responsibility, Cunnell charts his journey from anger to compassion, as his daughter Jay realizes he is a boy, and a son.</p><p>Most
