-There is no other writer like him- MAGGIE NELSON
-I steal language and ideas from Michael Clune- BEN LERNER
A strange and brilliant teenager-s first panic attacks lead him down the rabbit hole in this wild, highly anticipated debut novel from one of our most distinctive literary minds
Nicholas is fifteen when he forgets how to breathe. He already has plenty of reasons to feel unstable: he''s been living with his dad in the bleak Chicago suburbs since his mum kicked him. Then one day in geometry class, Nicholas suddenly realises that his hands are objects. The doctor says it-s just panic, but Nicholas suspects that his real problem might not be a psychiatric one: maybe the Greek god Pan is trapped inside his body.
As his paradigm for his own consciousness crumbles, Nicholas, his best friend, Ty, and his maybe-girlfriend, Sarah, hunt for answers why - in Oscar Wilde and in Charles Baudelaire, in rock -n- roll and in Bach, and in the mysterious, d
